Monday December 18, 2023
I opened my eyes and started reading my bible after grabbing it from the night stand (well, my coffee table, since I fell asleep on the couch) and for some reason, God wanted me to continue reading until I came across the passage that read, 'and Jesus said, ''and one of you is the devil, 'referring to Judas, who would betray Him later on.' I found it odd that the Holy Spirit would force me to end it there but He did. And sadly, I felt that I too would betray Him that day or I was betraying Him already. I didn't feel the usual morning joy after reading, because my heart was troubled. Why would Jesus do this to me? I thought I was obeying Him. Deep down though, I knew, I was the betrayer and Jesus was right. I'd been disrespecting God whom I loved and worshiped for so long. And it all started a few months ago when I found myself cussing and praying at the same time. That night, rage filled my heart and I was overwhelmed with frustration. I repented aft